The Blog Barrier

Once this blog started picking up steam last summer, I was awarded a freedom I didn’t know I craved. I will call it ‘public seclusion.’ Public seclusion is the ability to disseminate information without any personal contact at all. I can share my deepest feelings and most private physical evolutions and reach thousands of women…

Secret Film Project Revealed

http://www.siskeljacobs.com/grace/ Remember when I hinted I may be involved in a film production? Well, the time is now, to introduce ‘Grace.’ I am beyond proud to be the subject of this short-form documentary film produced and directed by a young survivor herself, Rachel Pikelny. The film started production as I was finishing chemotherapy in September…

Is it…?

They say that if your cancer is going to recur or metastasize it is most likely to happen in the 12 months after you finish initial treatment. So I finished chemo on September 13, 2016. I am going to go with that date as the day my 1 year stopwatch started ticking. The first few…

Lymphedema- The Gift That Keeps on Giving

About a month and a half ago, I noticed that my right thumb was swollen. Hmmmm, that is odd. I definitely did not injure it. Maybe it will be back to normal tomorrow. It wasn’t. It started to hurt it was so swollen. I was compensating for all kinds of opposable thumb activities. At a…

What’s Under My Hood?

Today is my 6 month anniversary of finishing chemotherapy. It doesn’t seem accurate because the effects of the treatment go on for so long after your last infusion. I would say that I have felt free of the poison for about 2-3 months. It took that long for my fingernails to stop being wavy and…

A Hair Day

I am already laughing at the really bad joke I am about to tell. I really do entertain myself. I think I could be okay in a locked, padded room for a few days. It might feel like a vacation. Anyway, here goes. I am having a hair day! Not a good hair day, not…

Statistics Schmatistics

Statistics are stupid. Seriously, what do statistics even mean if you are the unlucky sucker in the minority? Example: When I had my mammogram at 35 years old last year, here is what the radiologist said: “I see something, but it is probably nothing. I am going to say that there is an 80% chance…

On Masochism

I have always, for as long as I can remember, been a bit of a glutton for punishment. As an adult, I learned of the term ‘masochism’ and knew I had that affliction. Now get your minds out of the gutter, people, I’m not talking freaky-deaky stuff here, I am talking the concept of lightly…

Pap Smear Campaign

I saw my midwife for my annual lady-parts exam 2 weeks ago. It was much ado about nothing, mostly just catching up about personal things since I work with my midwife when I am functioning as a doula and she wanted to hear all about how I was doing. I wasn’t due for my 3…

Follicular Folly

Okay, I realize that a haircut was probably slightly premature, but I am desperate to do anything that feels non-cancery. My hair was starting to grow over my ears and the nape of my neck was looking sloppy. This was all I needed to warrant a visit to the salon. The haircut itself took approximately…

Teaser

I can’t tell you much, but I can tell you that I am working on something very special and very powerful with a remarkable female filmmaker.  Let’s just say, I’ll probably headline the SuperBowl Halftime Show next year.  Stay tuned for a late 2017 debut. Until then, continue to enjoy the inspirational train wreck that…

Cancer Tourette’s

There is a very unfortunate situation happening in one of my children’s classrooms. We live in a lovely suburb with fantastic public schools, but unfortunately no school district is immune from emotional problems in the classroom. I can not and will not get into the specifics of the situation, but I can tell you that…