I Am Here, But Where Am I?

Most days I don’t think too much about being a cancer survivor. My life has equalized to a place that feels familiar, of pre-cancer Grace. There is currently nothing on my calendar that is out of the ordinary. My physical health is excellent. I have the right amount of energy for a mom of three…

Scars to Art (Don’t Panic, I’m Wearing Pasties)

Today is the one year anniversary of my bi-lateral mastectomy. About 6 months ago, I met a man who would change the course of my recovery. David Allen, a brilliant artist, agreed to create a mastectomy tattoo on my right (cancerous) side, to help obscure scars. More importantly, to give me back the power of…

Things I Learned About My Post-Cancer Body on a Beach Vacation

I just returned from the vacation of a lifetime. My husband and I went to, wait for it… Bora Bora for 8 days! The best way I can describe Bora Bora, Tahiti and French Polynesia, in general, is that I truly can’t believe that it exists on the same planet on which the rest of…

Rhymes With Bucket List

We all know what a bucket list is. It is the concept of creating a list of things you would love to accomplish before you die, aka, kick the bucket. It is usually a list of very aspirational things like, go on a safari, write a novel, stay in a hut over the ocean… Based on…

36, Again

My birthday is this week. My 36th birthday last year was somber. I was 2 weeks out from diagnosis and 2 weeks away from my bi-lateral mastectomy. Though I was in somewhat of an ‘ignorance is bliss’ phase, it was still a sobering birthday. We all know how my 36th year went down. It was…

Hocus Pocus Diagnosis

The Magic Trick Set up: Seemingly healthy 35 year old woman Slight of hand: Random bi-lateral lactation leading to mammogram and biopsy Show of cards: Cancer One year ago today I was diagnosed with Invasive Ductal Carcinoma of the breast. I didn’t see it coming. I had had a biopsy, as a mammogram had shown…

The Blog Barrier

Once this blog started picking up steam last summer, I was awarded a freedom I didn’t know I craved. I will call it ‘public seclusion.’ Public seclusion is the ability to disseminate information without any personal contact at all. I can share my deepest feelings and most private physical evolutions and reach thousands of women…

Secret Film Project Revealed

http://www.siskeljacobs.com/grace/ Remember when I hinted I may be involved in a film production? Well, the time is now, to introduce ‘Grace.’ I am beyond proud to be the subject of this short-form documentary film produced and directed by a young survivor herself, Rachel Pikelny. The film started production as I was finishing chemotherapy in September…

Is it…?

They say that if your cancer is going to recur or metastasize it is most likely to happen in the 12 months after you finish initial treatment. So I finished chemo on September 13, 2016. I am going to go with that date as the day my 1 year stopwatch started ticking. The first few…

Lymphedema- The Gift That Keeps on Giving

About a month and a half ago, I noticed that my right thumb was swollen. Hmmmm, that is odd. I definitely did not injure it. Maybe it will be back to normal tomorrow. It wasn’t. It started to hurt it was so swollen. I was compensating for all kinds of opposable thumb activities. At a…

What’s Under My Hood?

Today is my 6 month anniversary of finishing chemotherapy. It doesn’t seem accurate because the effects of the treatment go on for so long after your last infusion. I would say that I have felt free of the poison for about 2-3 months. It took that long for my fingernails to stop being wavy and…