The DL on the DL

Mom, please stop reading right now. My father-in-law, I’m serious, this is not for your eyes. Anyone at all who doesn’t want to hear details about the goings on in my still functioning (barely) lady bits, this where where you exit the blog, stage left. BYE!!!! Here goes- A couple of technical things you should…

An Open Letter to Cancer

Dear Cancer, Four years ago today, you took my father from me. 8 months before that, he was just my dad, a seemingly very healthy 64 year old college professor. In the blink of an eye, he was living with Stage IV metastatic esophageal cancer. Within weeks of his diagnosis he was no longer able…

I Am Here, But Where Am I?

Most days I don’t think too much about being a cancer survivor. My life has equalized to a place that feels familiar, of pre-cancer Grace. There is currently nothing on my calendar that is out of the ordinary. My physical health is excellent. I have the right amount of energy for a mom of three…

Scars to Art (Don’t Panic, I’m Wearing Pasties)

Today is the one year anniversary of my bi-lateral mastectomy. About 6 months ago, I met a man who would change the course of my recovery. David Allen, a brilliant artist, agreed to create a mastectomy tattoo on my right (cancerous) side, to help obscure scars. More importantly, to give me back the power of…

Things I Learned About My Post-Cancer Body on a Beach Vacation

I just returned from the vacation of a lifetime. My husband and I went to, wait for it… Bora Bora for 8 days! The best way I can describe Bora Bora, Tahiti and French Polynesia, in general, is that I truly can’t believe that it exists on the same planet on which the rest of…

Rhymes With Bucket List

We all know what a bucket list is. It is the concept of creating a list of things you would love to accomplish before you die, aka, kick the bucket. It is usually a list of very aspirational things like, go on a safari, write a novel, stay in a hut over the ocean… Based on…

36, Again

My birthday is this week. My 36th birthday last year was somber. I was 2 weeks out from diagnosis and 2 weeks away from my bi-lateral mastectomy. Though I was in somewhat of an ‘ignorance is bliss’ phase, it was still a sobering birthday. We all know how my 36th year went down. It was…

Hocus Pocus Diagnosis

The Magic Trick Set up: Seemingly healthy 35 year old woman Slight of hand: Random bi-lateral lactation leading to mammogram and biopsy Show of cards: Cancer One year ago today I was diagnosed with Invasive Ductal Carcinoma of the breast. I didn’t see it coming. I had had a biopsy, as a mammogram had shown…

The Blog Barrier

Once this blog started picking up steam last summer, I was awarded a freedom I didn’t know I craved. I will call it ‘public seclusion.’ Public seclusion is the ability to disseminate information without any personal contact at all. I can share my deepest feelings and most private physical evolutions and reach thousands of women…

Secret Film Project Revealed

http://www.siskeljacobs.com/grace/ Remember when I hinted I may be involved in a film production? Well, the time is now, to introduce ‘Grace.’ I am beyond proud to be the subject of this short-form documentary film produced and directed by a young survivor herself, Rachel Pikelny. The film started production as I was finishing chemotherapy in September…

Is it…?

They say that if your cancer is going to recur or metastasize it is most likely to happen in the 12 months after you finish initial treatment. So I finished chemo on September 13, 2016. I am going to go with that date as the day my 1 year stopwatch started ticking. The first few…